I talk to God. Its not like I actually hear a voice. I just talk to God in my mind. All the time. Sort of a stream of consciousness thing. I actually get some of my best insights when I have these conversations. If you are reading this, if there is something that resonates with you - great! If not, then just consider this a flight of fancy of an overly imaginative woman. The truth is - I get a lot out of these conversations. So literally the other day while I was talking to Him, he suggested that I write some of these down and share them. The conversation went like this:
God: Why don't you share our little talks?
Me: Because everyone will think I am insane.
Me: So? Why should anyone care what you and I talk about?
God: Because they talk to me too, sometimes. And I want them to know its o.k.
Me: So I get to risk seeming completely bonkers to everyone on Facebook so that they will feel good about talking to you?
God: Sure. What difference does it make what they might think? Plenty of people already know you are bonkers.
Me: Thanks God.
God: I'm just sayin...
Me: Well - how do I know you are really talking to me and this isn't my imagination.
God: You don't know. But you have to have faith.
Me: What if I get the wrong message and transmit it?
God: It could happen. People don't always hear me clearly.
Me: Well.. I don't want to send the wrong message.
God: And that's why I think you can do this.
Me: Well, why don't you just talk to everyone personally.
God: I do. All the time. Some listen. Many don't. But you do. I like that.
Me: Ok. So, is there anything you want people to know?
God: Yes. That I love you! With a huge love. And that there are going to be some really difficult times ahead, but turn to me. Listen to me. Trust me and it will be ok. I really want to bless you all. I am here all the time waiting for you.
Me: That scares me when you talk about difficult times....
God: I know it does. It's not meant to scare you. When people pretty much forget about doing what is right, tough things can happen.
Me: Well, couldn't you stop those bad things?
God: Yes, I could. But you all have free will and have to learn to do the right thing. It's like a baby learning to walk. He has to fall down to learn how to get back up. What people don't know is that I actually prevent a lot of things from happening. I extend my Grace many times. You all have no idea how sad it makes me to see people suffer. You are all my children.
Me: But you let it happen anyway?
God: Yes. Sometimes. There are reasons things happen the way they do. As humans you can't see the big picture.
Me: Ok. I don't want to suffer. I don't want bad things to happen.
God: I know you don't. But I am with you always.
Me: I thought this would be a much more fun conversation.
God: Let's talk about your dreams.
Me: Can we?
Me: How do I know if my dreams are what you would have me do?
God: If they are good and beautiful and lovely. I am all for them.
Me: What if they are difficult or even impossible.
God: Well, nothing is impossible with me... If you know in your heart that your dream is something good, something that could be helpful to your family, your community, your world. It's a good dream.
If it is something that is illegal, immoral... well obviously that's not a dream from me.
Me: Well, what if I want a car or a diamond bracelet?
God: Depends upon your purpose for these things. If a car will help you better serve your family or do your job better, why not? A diamond bracelet is really more of a gift isn't it? Perhaps what you really want is something that illustrates love to you. There is nothing wrong with any beautiful object as long as you can afford it and it doesn't cause undue suffering somewhere. But dreams are bigger than cars and bracelets. Dreams are about how you want to live your life. The kind of impact you want to have. The way you want to be able to serve your community, your family. Dreams are about how to use your very special gifts to express my love to the world. Thats what dreams are about. Money, cars, bracelets etc. are things that come and go. They are icing. Dreams are the cake. Dreams are about doing that thing, or going to that place that is in your heart.
Me: I like that. I like to dream.
God: I know. I like that about you.
Me: I am going to go now, God. I want to think about my dream some more.
God: Good.. I will be right here with you. Come back anytime.