Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Back to the Real World
I had a lovely week living in a fantasy world about my Big Dream. I did some research, bought some books, talked to some people, made some lists. I pretended and imagined. I dressed the part and spoke positively. But my research turned up some real concerns. My dream started fading, or at least shifting, changing. And then I looked at my checkbook. And the stack of bills, the laundry, the papers to grade, the plumbing that needs to be fixed, the car that needs brakes. And I had to wake up. Or deal. Or just lie down with a rag on my forehead. Dreams are so exciting. They are so pretty. Shiny. Perfect. And then there is the real world. In reality things are shiny only if you shine them. Pretty occurs when you work at it. Perfection... probably doesn't really exist at all. Because life isn't perfect. Life just -- is. Heaven will be perfect but until that happens.. and frankly, I am not in a hurry, life will be what it is. So what does that mean to us dreamers? I don't know. I know that all the art and great achievements of this world would not have occurred if someone hadn't dreamed about it. Light bulbs, air conditioning, computers ... all came from someone dreaming up a better way to do something. If it weren't for dreamers we would all still be collecting rocks and living in caves, and trying to stay one step ahead of saber toothed tigers. Dreams and Faith. We have to first imagine it and then have faith that it can happen. And then there is that leaving the results up to God part. Even when it looks impossible. Even if we have to adjust to what it is until we can find the courage or resources or opportunity to move toward where we would like to be. There are time when I really wish God would let me in on what He has planned for me. There are times like today when I feel like I thought I had seen a glimmer of light only to lose it. Which basically leaves me groping around in the dark. Maybe it is times like this when I just need to sit back, rest and wait. Wait for the next little spec of light. For the next little piece of the puzzle. Waiting. Not my favorite thing to do. But I have done everything else I could think of to do. So that is what's left. But while I wait I can do whatever is in front of me to be done. And I can continue to dream.